Friday, August 21, 2009


I am the worst blogger EVER. I would like to tell you I have been too busy to post anything but that would not be the truth. The truth is that over the last month or so depression has really taken a hold of me. I want to assure you that I am ok now. I am really doing 100x better than I was even two weeks ago.

I have never been depressed before. I dealt with some minor anxiety issues in college but nothing too serious. Maybe that's why I didn't see the signs. Things got very dark. I just felt flat. It's hard to explain, which is why I haven't blogged. It is not like I sat around crying all the time, in fact it is quite the opposite. I was so afraid of admitting what I was feeling that I tried to be happy all the time. Eventually this caught up with me and I broke. It has been a very rough few months in the Rootbeer household.

I have never felt so alone in my life. I feel as if noone understands my greif and pain.